I have a bad habit. I’m quiet. Like really quiet.
Well, not exactly. I’m loud asf when I’m at home or at school with my friends. But around other family or anywhere else, I’m super quiet. People assume I’m mean or I don’t want to be talked to or even that I’m going to like…I don’t know have a panic attack if you say hey to me. It makes me feel unlikeable. That’s kind of my reputation at my grandma’s house, or in my extended family in general. The one that don’t talk. It’s irritating as hell. People will walk in the room and speak to everyone but me. And I know I could just say something but I already feel like they don’t like me or something so I don’t even want to say anything.
I’ll see someone walk in the house and not speak. Not because I dislike you, I probably want to hey, deep down. But I just don’t. And I want to stop. But I feel like since I already don’t talk why should I start now?
And this especially bothers me because I’m starting high school next year. And most likely, I’m not going to talk. It’s not what I do. I know I’ll make friends, it’ll take time though. Because I don’t talk. I’m fourteen and I have 0 relationships with family besides maybe 2 aunties. I’m not close to them though. I don’t really have a favorite cousin because I don’t talk to them. I don’t have anybody to talk to at family reunions because I didn’t start a relationship when I was young. And I’ve always felt annoying. Like if I did say anything, I would be ignored or irritate people.
Anyway, I’ll be back. Thanks for reading.
Every song in my damn library is my favorite song. But here’s a couple I got my eye on.
1.Emani 22 – Better Days (CLICK HERE TO LISTEN https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChcPqqE3Mao )
2.Trippie Redd – UKA UKA ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qcGg21Rgi4U )
3.Comethazine – Gusher Guts ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YV3ohBnMZFs )
4. Bass Santana/XXXTentacion/Ski Mask the Slump God – Make Eem Run! ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hlu8eaSKQbo )
5.XXXTentacion – Sauce! ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XugXU6jaMv8 )
6. Coi Leray – Did It ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kEr8g3agBgk )
7.Armoo – Asian ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tP1PiEBfukI )
8. B. Lou/DC The Don – That Ain’t It Cheif (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqYhk3dZeHw )
9. Lil Playah – Little Did I Know ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SI5Yw_EvIuw )
10. Lil Kae – Demon ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knyDF9AIv60 ) SUPPORT HER SHE UNDERRATED ASF!!!!
11. A Boogie Wit Da Hoodie/Queen Naija – Come Closer ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQwfUMmai_0 )
12. Denzel Curry – SWITCH IT UP | ZWITCH 1T UP ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V7TbJiYy4EU )
GO SHOW EM LOVE💕💖
Valentine’s Day! Time to spread the love to everyone around you! Especially your girlfriend and boyfriend! But you always have to remember these rule!
- It has to be expensive! Oh, of course people say it just has to be from the heart, but that’s bullshit! Who wants a paper heart with the words “I love you” or “be mine” on it? That’s garbage. Your budget is $150 minimum. Who cared if you can’t afford it? Now hurry up and head to the most expensive mall in town!
- It’s for the girls. Ladies, before yo grab your keys and rush out the door, relax. The dudes are getting all the gifts for you. You don’t have to buy jack for them. You are more than them. They don’t deserve anything. Don’t spend your coins on a nigga who doesn’t deserve it! None do! So lay back while you’re man spends his whole paycheck and the next three on you.
- If she says she doesn’t want anything, she does. You’re girl might say she doesn’t want anything but don’t believe anything she says. She said no but on Valentine’s Day, no=yes. Common sense. Oh, is she mad because she said she didn’t want anything so you didn’t get anything? Should’ve seen that coming!
- And always remember, if you’re single on Valentine’s Day, you don’t exist. Period!
I hate valentines day. It’s lame and overrated. I’m always single on Valentine’s Day. Maybe I just got through a breakup, or I’m just ugly. And even if I wasn’t, I still wouldn’t give a fuck about Valentine’s Day. The last time I had a valentine, was 2 years ago. My boyfriend bought me all this stuff, and yeah I appreciated it, but I don’t get why the holiday exists. You already like or love each other. Why do you need a day to celebrate that. That’s what anniversaries are for. SO why do we need it? It’s just a commercial holiday. They just want you to spend your money on stupid red and pink shit that the other person will probably forget about in the next 5 months. But hey, if you wanna spend your money on me, go ahead! I’ll take it!
Happy Valentine’s Day y’all.❤🧡💛💙💚💜🖤💖💗💓💕💞❣💘💝💟💌
Hey! Happy 2019 everybody! As you can tell, I don’t really blog anymore. I have many reasons and I would like to share why.
One reason is because no one reads it anymore. I feel like this will not get any views at all, but I’m bored so I feel like I might as well. I don’t think I should be putting in all this effort when the only people who are gonna see it are random people on the internet occasionally.
Another reason is because I have been going through a lot of rough patches. When I’m in a bad place I don’t like to blog because I’m scared that I’ll say the wrong thing and my MOTHER will tell me to take it down. A year ago I made a post about anxiety and she told me to take it down because it was “not everyone’s business” even though I made this blog to express my feelings. I feel like I should be able to say whatever the FUCK I want as long as it’s not hurting anyone. That shit irks me and she most likely knows that. But I guess I lie to myself and say it’s “for my own good”.
Transitions. I don’t like blogging because I feel like since I’m still growing up, my opinions change a lot. And I have a big rule on not embarrassing myself. So if I say something one day and I come back to it a week later, I’ll change it or update it because I felt like it was cringeworthy. For example, a few months ago I made a post about music. Then a few months later I came back to it and a LOT of things had changed. I took people off that list and put people on it. And if you go back to that post, I probably don’t listen to at least 8 of those people anymore. Some are the same. And in about 3 months I’ll stop listening to more and start to listen to the people I didn’t used to, plus more! So that’s another reason.
I probably will still blog every few months, but a nigga get bored. Not sure yet.
Anyway, bye for now! -💕🔪🤞
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I would keep this clean but since nobody really reads my blog anymore…HEY BTC’S😍💛❤✨
So, most people know I haven’t blogged on WordPress since X died and I think I would’ve I just didn’t because I’m lazy sometimes. Anyway, I’m in 8th Grade now! A few things have changed.
- I am officially Dani Brookes: Well, I didn’t change my name to Dani Brookes but that’s what people call me and I go as Dani Brookes on social networks and shit like that. I am really serious about this music and my moniker will be Dani Brookes!
- Music: Not my music, my favorite music. It hasn’t really changed but, I have stopped listening to a lot of people. I don’t listen to people like Migos and Drake anymore. Their stuff is just played out to me. I don’t listen to 6ix9ine like that anymore for many reasons, I still like him I just don’t really listen to is music for real. My favorite rappers (top 3) are Xxxtentacion, Trippie Redd, and Ski Mask the Slump God, no cap. All time favorite. But I have so many favorites I can’t decide. It took me a really long time to narrow it down. My favorite singers are Billie Eilish, Sza, Rihanna, and Leah, oh and Emani I think. I could name so many more but it’s cool. Oh yeah! Tory Lanez and Bryson Tiller too, and A Boogie! You know what, let me stop before I go too far…
- Who acctually reads this? Cuz I’m convinced I can write whatever I want…You know what! I’m finna go watch Netflix…
I don’t have much time and I want this out of the way.
X is my favorite artist ever. I’ve never got this attached to an artist. He meant the world to me. And I felt like I knew him even though I didn’t know him. I don’t really care what anyone says you can’t change my mind no matter what. I loved him. He was the Goat and always will be.
RIP Jahseh Dwayne Onfroy…1998-2018
I will miss you forever. You helped me get through so much.